Saturday, January 10, 2009

THE HEIGHTS

THEY SAY – WHEN A PERSON FINDS THEMSELVES DRAWN TO HEIGHTS - IT IS THEIR KARMA CALLING OUT TO THEM – THE GREATNESS THEY ARE MEANT TO ACHIEVE BECKONING THEM. THEY SAY THAT SOMETIMES IT IS THE REALIZATION OF ONES OWN ABSOLUTE THAT DRAWS THEM TO HEIGHTS – THE URGE TO DOMINATE ALSO GETS ONE ATTRACTED TO HEIGHTS .LOSS OF PEACE OF MIND FORCES ONE INTO THE ARMS OF THE SPEEDING RUSH OF AIR FELT AT HEIGHTS – THE NEED TO BE OVERBEARING PLACES ONE AT HIGH POINTS – FRENZIED AMBITION-MET OR DESTROYED TAKES ONE TO HEIGHTS - DRUGGED CONSCIENCE AND DIMMED SENSES UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF GREAT PASSIONS ( LIKE SUCCESS , HAPPINESS,GOOD SEX) OR HEAVY INFLUENCE OF ALCOHOL – ALL TRANSPORT US TO THE SAME PLACE- “ON A HIGH”. SO THEN WHY WAS SIERRA MILLERS SPOTTED ON THAT BUILDING EVERYDAY??

SHE STOOD AN INCH FROM THE LEDGE OF THE ROOF – A GENTLE TUG OF A STRONG WIND WOULD KNOCK HER DOWN THE ROOF . SO DID SHE FEEL THE PAINFUL EXCITEMENT?? OR THE NAUSEATING FEAR?? DID SHE STAND THERE TO DWARF THE CITY LIGHTS OR TO FEEL AS VULNERABLE AS THE PIECE OF CLOTH BEING WHIPPED AROUND HER LEGS? I TRY TO MAKE OUT THE EXPRESSION ON HER FACE – BUT IT IS NOT ONE I CAN DISCERN. SHE SEEMS SO WEAK, SO VULNERABLE YET SO BRAVE – I AM AFRAID TO KNOW WHY' SHE COMES HERE FOR I KNOW THAT SHE WILL COME HERE ONLY TILL SHE HAS’NT FIGURED OUT THAT "WHY". I WANT TO ASK HER WHAT IT IS THAT SHE FINDS HERE? BUT I WOULD NEVER KNOW FOR I’LL NEVER ASK.

SHE STOOD SO STILL THAT IT BROKE MY HEART WHEN SHE LIFTED HER HAND TO COMB BACK A STRAY LOCK OF HAIR. I FELT THE WIND AROUND US , WHICH RESOLUTELY REFUSED TO WRAP AROUND ME THE WAY IT LITHELY ENCASED HER BODY.

AFTER FIFTEEN MINUTES, SHE TUrNED AND LEFT. THE WIND AROUND HER HOWLED AS IT FELT THE SOURCE OF ITS WARMTH RETIRE TO UNKNOWN DEPTHS WHERE ITS HEIGHT WOULD NEVER ALLOW IT TO DESCEND. I WATCHED HER TILL SHE REACHED THE STAIRS – THEN I REFUSED TO SPARE A GLANCE HER WAY .IT WAS TOO PAINFUL TO BE REMINDED OF ALL THE THINGS BENEATH MY LEVEL WHICH TOUCHED HER. THE WIND WHICH HAD FELT SO WARM – BIT INTO MY SKIN- HOLDING ME BACK WHERE I STOOD – RESOLUTELY FIXED.


SHE CAME BACK NEXT DAY LOOKING PRETTIER THAN USUAL. SHE STOOD THERE CALLING OUT MY NAME , SHE SCREAMED , WRITHING IN THE EFFORT- SHE LOOKED SO SPENT THAT HER BEAUTY BECAME AN EYE SORE – THEN I SAW IN HER EYES SOMETHING WHICH I HAD COME TO UNDERSTAND VERY WELL – A SENSE OF HOPELESSNESS AND BLAND FURY . SHE REACHED OUT FOR ME – HER FINGERS CLUTCHING EMPTY AIR .THE WIND BLEW ON , CIRCLING HER SMALL FRAME . AS SHE STEPPED ONTO THE LEDGE OF THE ROOF – I REALISED WHY SHE HAD COME HERE EVERY NIGHT – SHE CAME HERE TO FIND ME , WHO WAS LOST IN HER.SHE JUMPED DOWN THE ROOF – THE HEIGHTS THROWING HER WHERE SHE BELONGED – THE GROUND .

I HAVE NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHY PEOPLE COME TO ME – DO I EPITOMISE THEIR GREATNESS OR AM I A PLACE THEY CHOOSE TO SCORN THEIR EXISTENCE ? AM I CELEBRATION POINT OR A POINT MARKING AN END TO LIVES WHO TAKE THE PLUNGE TO UNKNOWN DEPTHS ?

THEY SAY – PEOPLE AT HEIGHTS ARE ALONE- THEY WILL NEVER KNOW THAT HEIGHTS ARE BETTER FRIENDS THAN A CLUMP OF SHALLOW , SPENT AND CONSUMED HUMANITY. I AM HEIGHT – PROUD AND ARROGANT- PLANNED TO BE SO BY SIERRA MILLERS . I HAVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH HER EVER SINCE THE FIRST BRICK OF MY FOUNDATION WAS LAID – AND ALL THORUGH THE TIME SHE RAISED ME FROM THE GROUNDS TO THIS HEIGHT- WHICH SHE COULD NOT REACH.

FOR THE FIRST TIME , SINCE SHE STARTED COMING HERE , I LOOK DOWN – AND SEE HER BLEEDING . I PITY HER – THE PART OF ME IN HER WHICH SHE NEVER REALISED. SIERRA MILLERS CAME TO ME TO FIND THE HEIGHT WHICH SHE COULD HAVE REACHED . I SAW HER STRUGGLING , NEVER REALISING THAT MY HEIGHT WAS HERS.AS SHE LIES ON THE GROUND TODAY – I FEEL CALM . MAYBE MY PURPOSE IS TO MAKE PEOPLE REALISE THAT PEACE LIES WHERE THEY COME FROM.

THE HEIGHTS , I LEARNT CANNOT FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE , NOR BEFRIEND SOMEONE TILL THEY REALISE THE HEIGHT IN THEM.
THEY SAY – PEOPLE AT HEIGHTS ARE ALONE. THEY WILL NEVER KNOW HOW LONELY HEIGHTS ARE…….


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THIS IS THE MOST RANDOM AND ABSTRACT PIECE IV EVER WRITTEN. I STARTED OUT FEELING THAT IT WOULD BE REALLY HORRIBLE.NOW THAT I AM DONE , I ACTUALLY REALISE THE BEAUTY OF THIS SEEMINGLY WEIRD PIECE.
A TRIBUTE TO THE HEIGHT, TO THE GREATNESS IN YOU . GO AHEAD AND ACHIEVE IT !!!